It sounds like you are dealing with some heavy thoughts and feelings at the moment, and we're so glad to hear that you have reached out during this difficult time.
Please know that you've come to a safe place here. It is likely that some of our members can relate to how you're feeling and will offer you some supportive replies and kindness.
We're wondering if you have sought professional mental health support. If not, and if you would like some help finding some, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
. You do not have to go through this alone.
If these thoughts of death become stronger or overwhelming, please do not hesitate to get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
We hope that expressing your feelings here has brought you some comfort. Please continue to post as you see fit. We're always here.