Hi Nothing 123,
It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time at the moment. We are glad that you've come here and expressed how you are feeling. Opening up takes strength.
Many of the people on this forum are welcoming, non-judgemental, and offer great support. Please know that this is a safe space for you.
It's great that you've come here for peer support. However, If you haven't already done so already, it sounds like you could really benefit from some professional mental health support. Please do not hesitate to contact our Support Service who are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
, and they will be able to help you with finding professional mental health support, as well offer you some support.
It sounds like you might also be considering the point of life, and potentially having suicidal thoughts. If things become too overwhelming for you, we recommend that you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Please continue to post and seek support when you feel up to it. We're always here to listen and offer support.