I feel your pain. I am so sorry that you and your daughter find yourself in such an incredibly difficult position.
I have walked in your shoes. Ten years ago, my 13 year old daughter was battling OCD. She was suicidal but her hospital admission had been planned earlier, so she wasn’t there to deal with an immediate attempt (although this had previously occurred).
Like your daughter, my girl had been receiving treatment that didn’t work for her. She felt she was the failure, not “the system”.
Leaving hospital was so scary for both of us. I had earlier in our journey engaged a mental health practitioner to support me to support my daughter.
This nurse coached me to help get my daughter through the critical post hospital period and keep me well. I encourage you to find someone to support you.
Today there is a new service available through bb called The Way Back Service. Trained MH practitioners provide support to people leaving hospital after a suicide attempt.
It has been shown to be successful in trials and is currently being rolled out nationwide. Please check the bb website to see if it’s available where you live.
I really want to encourage you to keep looking for the right person and the right treatment to help your daughter. I know it’s hard. I did a lot of research and we traveled interstate and we found the right local team—eventually.
MH is very hard. If our girls had cancer, someone would make a clear diagnosis, advise the treatment, tell us where to go and the system would work for them. I wish it were not so challenging but I hope it helps to know you’re not alone.
BTW my gorgeous girl reached recovery, graduated high school, went to uni, fell in love and currently lives her best life. It can get better. Hang in there.
Kind thoughts to you