Welcome to the forum and I am so sorry to hear of your experience. Losing a baby, no matter what age, is described to be unbearable. You are not alone and yes, this is definitely a good start in your journey. Many people have had experiences with losing a baby, having a still birth or a miscarriage. You are not alone in your experience. You would not be the first woman I have spoken to who hides these feelings away. I have a girl in my mothers group who disclosed a miscarriage to all of us and it revealed so much about the difficulty so many woman (and men) go through, and often in silence.
If you are not getting enough specific support here on the forum, and haven't made the step towards talking with a GP, there are organisations that might be able to help.
One is called SANDS and the contact number is 1300 072 637. SANDS is for people who have lost a newborn, had a stillbirth or miscarriage and the support can be described below:
"We know intense feelings of grief can surface when you least expect them. That’s why we have volunteer parent supporters ready to take your phone call at any time of the day or night. No matter when you call, you’ll be connected to a Sands volunteer who can offer you confidential, non-judgemental and compassionate support from the perspective of someone who understands what you’re going through. Every person on our phone line has themselves experienced the loss of a pregnancy or baby.
You don’t need to know what you’re going to say before you call, and you don’t need to wait until you feel more ‘together’. The person answering your call will give you all the time, space and support you need to find your voice."
Both Tim and The Big Blue mentioned talking with your GP which is also a really good first step. There are specific psychologists and counsellors that help people going through this type of loss and a GP can refer you.
I hope you find the strength to reach out and get some support, even if it is with the support of a friend or family member. Grief is something most of us will go through and is never a straightforward process and can be bumpy and a really difficult journey. Getting some support can help people navigate grief and their journey through it.
Please reach out here if you feel safe and if writing out your feelings or story helps, We are listening.