Ladybugs, thank you for sharing.
Working in healthcare in these times is super stressful and with trying to keep on top of your life (ie house, children) working in a stressful job can make you loose it all.
Youve done the right think by taking some time off, I suggest speaking with your GP (or another one) and making a plan, not working at all can be just as damaging for your mental health. I was diagnosed when I was off work for 5 months forced leave and not having the fulfillment of work and feeling like a failure impacted on my mental health too.
I'm currently working only part time and am incabaple of working more but that wont be forever.
What ages are your children? I have 3 too :)
What are the reasons behind the stressors of work and have you thought about making a work cover claim? I was bullied at work, then forced to resign when I was medically incapable of working there at all. Resigning (and getting claim benefits) allowed me to look at all what I really wanted to do, and it is to work, in my profession, I was just ruined from a toxic workplace.
It sounds like you know what to do, physically, but you probably need help with the motivation. I struggle with this still and it's a vicious cycle of knowing but not being able to do.
As for the anxiety, despite all my know managment styles, the best thing my GP did was write up some meds, I barely needed them but knowing they were there, and they worked, relieved so many full blown attacks.