Hi everyone. I am a new member here. I am a 26 yr old male living in Wollongong. I want to share my name but my situation was difficult so I would prefer not to. I would like to ask for advice regarding my situation.
I was in love with my ex-girlfriend of 2 and a half years. She broke up with me nine months ago. I treated her well, we went on dates, intimacy was amazing. However, 3 months in she hit me over the way I was washing dishes. Small discussions and small issues where I failed to do one thing out of the numerous she requested turned to vocal and physical abuse which shook me to my core.
Contemplated going to the police many times but I resigned as I would not have received any help. She is Australian and I am from another country. She kicked me out thrice out of the places we used to live in and I knew no one else but her for support. I am living somewhere else and am relieved and feel safe. Now, problem is I am scared of dating again, had many friends but now habe no one, though I am social and have no issues there. She contacts me from time to time, and due to crippling loneliness I am thinking of meeting her again but I should not. How do I move on? Also, I made many friends and never discriminate but have been discriminated against due to my nationality and people frequently asking why don't you make friends frlm your own country. I write this with a heavy heart, but I only have myself to rely on and be strong. Coming from a group culture, it is tough not having friends, especially when I know I have so much to offer. Also, I believed my girlfriend was the one and I feel broken and stuck with moving on. I would like to find a woman who is in love with me and I with her. Any advice on moving on is welcome.
Sorry for the really long post.
Tl;dr: ex gf abused me. No support group. Looking for a serious relationship but have the physical abuse in my mind. Need any advice that may help. Thank you for reading.