Welcome to Beyond Blue and to the forum. Thanks for sharing your story with us. I too suffer from most of the things you have mentioned. I too have Hashimotos. On top of that I also developed Chronic Fatigue a few years back. I totally get the not having enough energy to be able to do much at all. Been there and done that.
I am sure a lot of us here have had so many people telling us we should just pull our socks up and get on with life, that we need to be thankful for what we do have.
Like you, I am sure we are all very thankful in so many ways, it is just that when we are plagued with depression, it is very hard to feel that way and to really accept that life is fantastic.
It is great that you have connected here and are able to share how you are feeling.
Sometimes we need to try different forms of medication before one works well. Some people also decide not to use medication at all. For me, I have tried to go off the medication with my Drs okay, but soon found I fell in a huge hole and was a lot worse off with out it. That is how I am.
It sounds like you do try to help yourself, so just keep encouraging yourself to move forward. If you slip back, then accept that and try again the next day.
Writing down the things that help you feel better is a good idea. Then when you are having a lousy day and don't know what to do to pick yourself up, you can look at your list and try to do something you have written down.
Sharing how you are feeling here is something many people will be able to understand. People here are non judgemental as well and can offer encouragement.
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools