First time here and glad I found a platform to talk things out so thanks to all in advance.
the last year has been pretty hectic as for so many, Last year I was Managing a large group of staff 70+ generally in a fast paced and demanding environment but through COVID in Vic was something else it really took its toll it was emotionally and mentally exhausting the level of emotional support the team required and company expectation not to mention the unreasonable and horrible customers was nothing I ever experienced and it was relentless. In October I was fortunate enough to get a new job in the same company but in a position I was always interested in but wasn’t a possibility but luck would have it a position became available and comes with less stress, slower paced and all the perks. This new role has ALOT of autonomy and my manager and co workers are in Different states and I have been working from home it has honestly been horrible I can’t seem to adjust to having so much autonomy and not having the strict structure and crazy pace that drives your day that I’m used to. The biggest struggle being at home all the time this will change in April, I have no motivation to leave the house going to the supermarket will guarantee a panic attack and I find myself sadly finding excuses to cancel plans to stay home. I have become worryingly self conscious and feel generally down, tired all the time and everything feels like a mountainous an effort. Leaving the house to just visit a friend or see family will have me in a state that results me being in a frustrated annoyed manner, not so fun.
My Husband is extremely supportive but struggles with how to help me as it’s not something he can fix for me and tends to get down as he can’t understand why I feel the way I do. we have so much positive going on but I struggle to be my usual upbeat and generally positive self and I’m just so sensitive and overly emotional majority of the time. I feel truely depleted and every day is fight to get out of bed and not to mention the internal fight that I feel I’m being ridiculous and I need to get together already!