So i'm only 23 and I have worked in (i feel like) every industry. I have never stayed at a workplace for longer than a year, or I tend to juggle two jobs at one time. I have spent heaps of money on different courses and training in fields that i THINK I'd like to work in, however, after a short period of time, I end up unable to cope with it all and leave. A part of me hates working; it's not that I am lazy, as I am a very hard worker. But my issue is that I don't seem to enjoy working at jobs. I have tried, retail, office/admin, hospitality, and even support work.
I just started a new job recently, to which after only three and a half weeks, I've asked for a few weeks off. I dread going to work, I cry for hours after a shift, and I am left unable to eat. I just figure, why work in a job when it makes me feel this physically and mentally ill. It's just not fair. I want to love this job, and just any job in general, but I never feel satisfied, and I count down the hours until home time every single shift.
At this stage I feel like I'd be better off doing some sort of work from home, as thats where i want to be. But knowing me, I'll work from home for a few weeks, and then complain that I wish I could leave the house.
Everything is escalated right now because my depression and anxiety is bad, but the fact that I still feel this way when I am feeling mentally okay is really bothering me. I want to be a woman who earns her own money, but at the same time, I would rather never work a day in my life because for some ridiculous reason, keeping a job seems like the hardest task in the world. What do I do from here????