last night was so shit. i. ugh. i couldn’t stop crying, but then when i did, i was so scared? i felt like arms around my grabbing my shoulders or arms and- look that happens every night but it particularly scared me today. whenever i closed my eyes i could see a face of a man that i had never seen before and it was so terrifying, but i was scared that when i open my eyes there would be someone or something gruesome next to me and i couldn’t shake that feeling. when i finally opened my eyes the face didn’t disappear, it floated in my vision and i just had to keep darting my eyes around to avoid it but it was always there. if i closed my eyes my brain would take make even darkness look like a clump and unmoving creatures. when i opened my eyes i would see the mans face. i just wanted to go to sleep.