I’m not really sure where to start so I guess I’ll begin by saying that I feel SO unbelievably dead.
For the last 2 and a half years I have felt like absolute trash and it’s just getting worse and worse everyday. I’m constantly exhausted, for no apparent reason - regardless of how much I sleep, I still wake up feeling the same, if not worse. I almost always have zero motivation, energy or concentration. And to top it all off, constant headaches that don’t react to painkillers at all... woooo!
Things are pretty shit.
I spend the majority of my day either asleep or laying down. I’m currently on the brink of failing year 11, I’ve always done really well at school but can barely even bring myself to do work anymore.
Occasionally I’ll have energy bursts but that hasn’t happened for a long long time. I don’t even feel alive anymore.
My teachers were understanding at first but I feel like they’re just sick of my shit by now. I don’t blame them, there’s only so much someone can put up with, I’m sick of it too.
I’ve been to 5 doctors over the last year, none of which have been any help. It’s the same routine everytime, send me for various blood tests/scans and then say they can’t help. One even said that I just feel like this because ‘I’m a teenager.’ I’m obviously not a doctor but I’m pretty sure this can’t be normal. I’ve had pretty much any blood test you can name, an MRI, some X-rays... all have come back normal. I eat reasonably well, sleep well and exercise plenty, so I just don’t know why I feel so terrible!! Maybe my body just hates me 🤷♀️
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so sick of trying so hard and getting absolutely nowhere. It’s like I’m just sitting around waiting to magically feel better, no one can do anything to help, there’s nothing left to do but wait. I’m always so torn between wanting to keep trying and wanting to just give up.
Idk what the point of this post even is, I’m just sad that I’m wasting my high school years like this. It just feels so unfair and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m sure others have it worse but I’m so sick of this!