Hi Elizabeth and everyone ☺
Dear lady it's awful feeling like that. Sometimes when everything builds up it seems like it won't change but it does with time in most cases which doesn't really help for now though does it.
From what I'm hearing you have quite a lot on at the moment (atm) and with looking after dear hubby it's understandable finding it all full on poor thing
There's been so much grief for people with covid and it can be a stressful time of yr on top I wonder if that's frazzling people. So good your sil apologised.
I guess but don't know if you've been sleeping enough, as you'd no doubt well know that has it's own world of stress for us and lifes so much harder in those times. In a way I hope a big contributor is tiredness because then when you catch up things will be lighter to cope with.
Something that sounds easy and you might be aware of and well worth the effort is thinking and feeling the memories of pleasure you've had in your life darl.
Could be time with Grandies, a craft or hobby, walks a TV show anything hun. Our minds need to have good stimulation to pull out of the darks.
I get a lot wrong in Bipolar during episodes. I thought you use to have walks with your sister but evidentally not...would be a mighty good walk going to America lol.
If you drive maybe you could find a lovely spot amongst nature I know you like that from the walking thread.
Hope you have a restful sleep tonight and wake with more energy and and feeling a sense of peace.
See you next time ☺