Hi Elizabeth Sophie and all ☺
Yes it's near impossible I've found and still do posting when we're heads in turmoil. As you achieved and well too, I've found eventually which can take considerable time we get there. I think although it surfaces what's going on it can be therapeutic writing it down also opening possibilities to help.
I heard somewhere here that if not a sleep which of course you need but sounds so full on a lie down can replenish some energy without sleeping that can affect night sleep.
Waiting for results can certainly be quite unnerving. Hopefully not too far off.
How kind you were going to the sports day esp on your day off. That's a shame. I guess this doesn't gel with you hun but atm how you're feeling I suggest for you to look after yourself first. There'll be other times you might be up to going. You desparately need to care for yourself for now.
I like what Sophies suggesting about taking some even if small time/s out each day for quiet time.
You probably know the benefits of deep breathing. Circulating oxygen to a tense body not only helps relax, it takes focus off what's going on by concentrating on the task at hand and can reduce stress.
I've been thinking of ? possibles that might ease your load. Could a community transport driver help with travel if you have that service handy. The cost is reasonable and petrol would be a cost anyway.
Mentioned this before which could even if temporarily give your poor overloaded mind a little reprieve and help reduce stress. Wondering if you'd like to try some very simple meditation.
- Sit comfy or lay down and breathe a few times deeply.
- Focus on actually feeling your neck muscles relax.
- Think about something relaxing you like or would like to do
I know you like the garden. Picture a lovely flower or...
- Watching water trickle...
- Trees ...
- Long grass gently blowing in the wind.. gently through your hair ...
- Walking slowly
- Or even simply your favourite colour
- Allow your mind to be there. See & feel it. Keep it simple
- When your mind wanders gently guide it back. Tell yourself you'll think about it later.
This can be practised even if 5 minutes at a time.
One I envisage is seeing the Sun and the cone of Golden flecks on the water. I loved seeing that once.
Always wishing good for you both dear Elizabeth.