My heart goes out to you as you are really doing it tough atm. Sorry to hear you now have flu symptoms on top of everything else.
Sophie has given very sound advice about ringing the help lines or if things become really desperate to ring 000.
Since you are off work this week try and make yourself as comfortable as possible. Perhaps try using essential oils such as lavender for headaches and drink herbal teas to keep your fluids up and soothe your busy mind. Above all be kind to yourself.
Are you able to eat properly, as that is important too? Try and eat your favourite foods even if it is only a small portion. Tasty hot soup can also keep your strength up.
I’m not sure why your mind is still racing since you are on medication. That’s something you will need to sort out with your psychiatrist and GP. Please let them know how you are doing asap.
It sounds like you are perhaps a bit run down. Do you take any vitamins or supplements? If not it might be worth considering as they can help to boost your immune system.
Keep in touch when you feel up to it. You are not alone. Everyone has a purpose even if they don’t know what that is. I think your purpose is definitely helping and supporting people, which you do very well through your work. So you are very much needed which means there is every reason for you to keep on going. Don’t give in to the negative thoughts in your head as they are not true.
Sending you a great big hug and some yummy food xox
Take extra care of yourself at this time. With lots of love Jojo 🌼🤗🥣