Dear Anzee ~
I think your post shows what a sensible person you are to see realistically that any break is never going to be easy, which is not to say it will never happen
Another time you may be in a better position concerning outside resources. I guess it is, like most things, a learning experience. You have the strenght as you have show, just not the resources at the moment
The fact things are not quite so bad at the moment is hopeful, and I hope you can develop or maintain the techniques that keep it that way. Nothing while the kids are awake is a good start, any chance of extending on that?
With the business over the house title maybe you might seek independent advice, perhaps Anglicare Financial Services or some other free not for profit agency
As far as being unsure about breaches, please seek outside advice, then you will know where you are, though seeking advice does not mean you have to act on it but can be a record of incidents if you want on for the future.
This of course does not include circumstances where you or your kids are in danger, then I don't think you have any choice but to ring 000
Now we come to the part of your post that if I understand it properly is simply is not sensible at all. There should be no way you should push your freind or your psychologist out of your life. You need comfort, perspective and care and they , apart from your kids, are the places you can get it.
OK you may feel a burden, and change your mind as differing factors come to the for. It is so easy to sit in an office and not remember waht life is really lifke at home. Then when you return all hte problems you face come back into your mind
This is perfectly fine. Your psych is someone you get on with and it is her profession to support, help and counsel, It is something she sees all the time. Please do not worry about the effect on her, you are worth any medical professional trying hard to help you, and that includes having patience and seeing your problems clearly
Friends are gold, they help make life so much better .Please remember you are her freind too, not just someone that only uses her. If you feel you are a burden than try to make conversions and visits enjoyable for both of you, do good things together, as well as seeking support
Life and circumstances do change, I never though I'd ever do anything but be useless stuck at home for the rest of my life when I was invalided out of my occupation
Now life is so far from that it's unbelievable