Hi 3 years ago I was diagnosed with testicular cancer and had my left one removed. under AMA rules the surgeon wouldn't,t replace it with a prosthetic as he said it was illegal and there were too many chances of rejection so I now have one. my best mate who knows I,m gay and has been beside me for 25 years. recently he told me the friendship was over and left. after I found out he couldn't,t be with me as he didn't want to be friends with a one nutted freak. despite the fact I was getting treatment for cancer. he said he felt I was obscene and I was not worth being with. sadly I,ve come across this issue from a lot of gay guys who just want to make fun of me. now I feel very alone and lost. i.ve lost all interest in being with anyone and now I,ve become so reclusive I can,t tolerate visitors. you all probably thinking I,m taking this too seriously but when you walk down the Main Street and have a complete stranger yell out hey look theres the one nut freak, and everyone else joins in what would you do. all I want is to be loved and accepted as I am. I can,t change what happened and right now I,m in remission. why are some gay guys so cruel?? and no my own doctor has told me that prosthetics can,t be used in QLD as he has checked that side of things out and moving is not an option. I ve been through a lot in the last 3 years most of the time I,ve had to cope on my own. I,ve tried to get help through cancer help groups but when I attended one in in my home town, the lady who was running the session told the group what had happened to me, I was told we don't want your type here that was a cancer support group and I haven't been back. I can,t understand why having cancer seems to make people avoid you like the plague. I,m sorry but its true I,ve gone through this time and time again. if anyone out has the same issues I,d like to get to know you. life is very empty and lonely right now. I wonder how many gay guys have gone through the same thing. just because I only have one does that make me different from any other guy not that it is visual. funny thing is once they find out it turns into a huge joke and they all tell their mates and on it goes. you can see why I,m so reclusive as I,m too scared to get hurt again. love is all I want. any advice please.