Welcome here. A good move to come here, you can certainly talk to us, we will listen and understand.
I too have been afraid to talk wiht a doctor, or a psych. I've been fearful of being judged, that I will not be understood, of not being able to explain things clearly face to face or chicken out on the hard parts. Also a matter of pride too I guess. So I kept on putting it off.
This simply allowed things to get worse. There was no way I could fix myself, it was all downhill over time. No motivation, no ability, anger and withdrawal. Hopelessness.
One solution which I used was to take a couple of days and write down in point form all that was happening to me and how I felt. I had the time to get everything just right, and was able to include matters I'd not want to talk about face to face. I then phoned for a long appointment and when it came handed over the paper.
It worked well. I just ended up answering questions amplifying what I'd written. The doctor was pleased not having to fish for answers or miss something. All was good, I was diagnosed and treatment was made that suited my problems, which included anxiety conditions.
I've improved out of sight.
Do you think this is something you might do? You have made the hardest step already by coming here writing things down, the next step is not as bad as you will think. Anxiety builds things up out of all proportion. The real even comes at least partly as a relief.
Would you like to come back and talk some more? We will understand exactly