Hello 2quick, my apologies that nobody replied to you, I just saw your thread browsing the forums so I thought I'd reply, sorry it's late.
I'm very sorry to hear of your struggles and nervous breakdown. Please know that breakdowns are common, and they're normal. I read a quote saying that breakdowns are just a sign of remaining strong mentally and physically for too long, and I agree.
It's okay to feel the way you do and think the way you think, it's okay not to be okay. Your feelings are valid, as are your thoughts and you in general. Please know that you're not alone, lots of people have nervous breakdowns, they are common like I mentioned.
I'm glad that you sought help by making a GP appointment, how did that go if you feel comfortable sharing? Did it help, did they give you strategies to cope or anything like that, a safety plan perhaps? If not, you're always welcome here for support, you're safe here.
As for putting you in hospital, I've been told that professionals don't do that unless you're at risk of harming yourself and/or others and just by reading your post without assuming things, I don't think you are, so they wouldn't. By law they have to if you're at risk though.
Good luck with your appointments and everything else, and the meds. I hope things get better for you and that you can clear your head. Take care, be safe. We're here for you on the forums, me included.
Thinking of you, all the best. Please remember you're not alone and it's all common.