Thank you so much for your response. I really appreciate you taking the time to read and respond to my post.
As of this term I have dropped my physics class, which whilst being something I enjoyed, it was a class that put a huge amount of pressure on me. I completely understand what you're saying about feeling like a failure after giving up. It's a feeling that made dropping the class incredibly difficult. As for dropping my year 12 class it is no longer possible to make changes to our classes at my school. I do take solace in the fact that should I completely fail my year 12 course, I am able to repeat the class.
I can definitely relate to the need to recuperate after interaction and mentally strenuous work. The problem for me at the moment is that I feel this exhaustion almost constantly despite doing nothing. I have incredibly low motivation to do anything even remotely related to school work and even relating to life in general - for example, I have no hobbies and spend all my time in my room, lying in bed on my phone. I feel that I have no purpose or reason to do anything, because what does it matter? I've worked hard and gotten good grades my whole life yet I have achieved nothing. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.
I recently went away with a group of friends, and got a chance to truly re-charge my battery. I hoped that this would have a positive impact on my life but when I returned home I simply returned to my usual self-destructive behavior (not in the sense of physical self-harm, but rather putting off work to do nothing despite knowing it will lead to a break down later on). Do you have any tips for re-charging ones battery in a meaningful and lasting way?
Thank you again for your response PamelaR. Being able to take the time to openly write about how I'm feeling and knowing that others care enough to respond and can relate to what I'm going through makes me feel as though the burden has been lifted slightly. I am very glad that I took the time to write on here.