Thank you for your encouragement.
I had a few very good days but today is definitely not good. A million what-ifs circling inside my head. Feels like I'm just sitting here feeling spaced out until bedtime. Bedtime is another beast of its own .... that's when my ocd-rituals kick in and I can never get to sleep as early as I had planned.
There is something that I'm really worried about at the moment but I know the pre-emptive worry is always worse than the actual thing.
Just keep telling myself that I'll feel ok again once this has passed.