Hi Rainbowpolly,
Im sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved dog I understand this would be hard for you…
In regards to your friend who compulsively sends you negative information on Covid ….. don’t open them and please don’t read them…… steer clear of negativity instead put you attention on positive things……
Try googling and reading positive affirmations every day…… my social media is full of them I don’t put my attention on anything negative I just scroll on by….. I have no interest in reading anything negative because I don’t want negative energy……. I always look for the positive in everything in return you will be rewarded with positive emotions…
Sorry to hear you have trouble sleeping try to do some guided meditation before sleep…..
When you are at home alone I understand the anxiety feels worse it did for me ……. One of the things I did was write a list every night before going to sleep my list consisted of things I wanted to accomplish the next day…. Eg… showering, washing the dishes, vacuuming every time I did something I’d cross it off the list it kept me busy and I felt good for accomplishing what was on the list……. While doing these things on the list I did them mindfully when I showered how did the water feel on my body, how does the soap smell, how does the water sound…. By doing this I was exercising my attention and I was in the present moment and not stuck in my head…. We can train our minds to be in the present moment it just takes practice but it’s practice well spent……. Our attention is like a muscle and it needs exercise.
Guided meditation is great I can’t recommend it enough I believe it got me over the line…. I learned I’m not my thoughts but the watcher of my thoughts….
I understand the feeling of being scared I was terrified of my intrusive thoughts while I was in the grips of severe anxiety…
Have you spoken to your gp about medication if you want to go this way? If your anxiety is really affecting your life it may be an option for you….
Im sorry you partner isn’t very supportive, we can only hope that our loved ones support us with no judgment.
Hang in there
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