Hi lillianna thx for that , and come here and vent away anytime ok , it's all helpful.
lt's nerve racking as hell starting a new job l know , well l remember from the days way back when. Hope you settle in ok , give it time hey . At least your through the hardest part , that first day.
But yeah what your actually doing is a huge part of it to l reckon but depends on what we need in a job. For example the old farmer l met obviously loved what he did , and it showed all over the property as l drove in . For me what l do l wouldn't say is my dream job but it does combine a lot of things l really enjoy if l must work and that are important to me now , none the less though , and that really really helps for sure. Only today l just started on the work side of things with the latest and first job for the yr, l work at home . And it was funny l was thinking about the thread and what it's about on and off and as l first went out and started doing a bit, l really just felt like going back to bed tbh. lt felt daunting , and with the way l've been feeling l just didn't know this morning if l could even start it let alone get through it , it'll be about a 6wk job give or take. But by this afternoon l was actually enjoying work again , the way l usually would've up until this last 6mths and by tonight l was actually looking forward getting stuck into it from here and exited about the design and layout , even looking forward to doing more on a start with it tomorrow now.
But at the same time though l was also feeling tired and well aware that l dunno how long l'd be able to keep doing it for , l'll have to this yr but unless my spirits pick up l wouldn't be too sure about getting through the next or on from there mentally.
We all need and get different things from our work though and it might not matter to you from here that your not doing your dream job. maybe it's the social outlet , out of house outlet, money, the hours , the feeling , who knows for each person . But if it gives you some or most or what you need from a job , personally l think that's all that matters unless a person has a burning need to do or get into this or that l don't myself these days l've done those , now l just need something that gives me what's important to me these days.
Good luck anyway eh , hope you start enjoying things .