Something you might not be aware of.
Ultra alertness is in people with ADHD. A prof Green of Sydney daid thst it developed in cave man days. When a man protected his family he had to be alert to predators, thieves, etc some humans developed this alert trait that just doesnt fit into our society. It is a normal trait.
Fear is the same. It is in all of us. When you have suffered as you have with homelessness, violence, loss of a child etc....there are consequences. You become afraid, damaged and anxious.
Even positive people like myself find it hard to see positives in fear, crime, anxiety etc. But when we take it to the extreme i.e if we didnt have fear at all then we would be vulnerable as we wouldnt protect ourselves.
So, once this visit is underway you'll settle.
The many things you craved
Years along wonder street
You tears finally march in time with
The pitter patter of his feet
That sound before the door bell ring
You missed every night and more
You wont miss it now mum so good
He's knocking at the door...