There is never a need to apologise for not posting. We all post when we have the energy and have something to say, otherwise we stay quiet. Take this at your own pace without feeling you are obliged to post. Talk when you are ready and say as much or as little as you wish.
Having said that I am interested in how your psychiatrist session went. Only when you are ready and only as much as you wish. Please do not exhaust yourself by posting in everyone's thread. This can be an exhausting business, so take time to be you.
I love getting together with my family whether we go out for a meal or get together in one of our homes. Nothing like family to be there when you feel upset. Does anyone know you are getting therapy?
In my last post I asked if had considered getting a dog. Maybe you already have one. If not then consider increasing your family. Dogs are so accepting and ready to give affection. I have always had a dog in my home until my last move. I used to sit on the floor at home when I was a child and talk to our dog. He knew all about my troubles and he never told anyone. Now that's a friend.
Pets can play a big role in our lives and also with our MH. To sit and stroke your cat or dog is therapeutic. Taking the dog for a walk is one way of getting out of the house because the dog needs exercise so you get some exercise as well. All good for your MH. If you cannot leave the house then get a smaller dog and play with him in the garden. Again a win/win all round.
How do you go with gardening? Nothing like immersing yourself in the weeding. Good symbolism as well. Growing plants, watching them thrive, grow and flower. Lovely. Do you take take writing your poetry outside? I think that would be another source of inspiration. Sitting in a comfortable chair looking at your garden, cuppa and notebook at hand, is so refreshing. Another way of relaxing and letting peace soak into your body and mind.
Reading is also good. I recommend reading 'Living with IT' by Bev Aisbett. 'IT' is anxiety in its many forms. This is a small paperback you can read in half and hour and come back to and find more. Perhaps your local library has a copy? I think you would enjoy the light touch, cartoons (stick figures) and jokes that are a reflection of ourselves. Enjoy.