Oh Aaron, firstly hi, and secondly ..I am soo proud of you.
You have done it and I am very proud of you as this has been so bloody hard for you and the anxiety and stress and guilt all rolled up into one big ball of yuk. You are such a caring person and because of that it will feel like crap today, but you are so very right, this will be the worst of it, each day will easier, but some days might feel worse and all this is completely normal and completely ok. Please don't beat yourself up if you want to cry or just feel like absolute crap, allow yourself to do that, give yourself permission to grieve this, it is a loss.
She is not a bad person, infact you love her and she was special to you, you care for her and that is what makes you so wonderful, that you can see all her good and wonderful points but they just don't line up with what you need anymore, and that is fine.
Today be kind to yourself, even if you can do one thing you love, jump in the car and go for a big sing to Roy..it is going to be a beautiful 17 in Hobart today so that sunshine should help too.
I guess I am just saying that I am so happy for you, it is a wonder what is next for you but you know what...how bloody exciting...you can choose, it is all up to you and that is so refreshing and liberating. Now you have done this you have given yourself permission to feel alive again.
Lean on your mum, lean on your friends, lean on me...we are all here to see that you are ok as we all care about you.
Stay strong Aaron and that is so sweet of you to call her today, that is really kind of you too.
Just a side note, the mother in me came out yesterday when I didn't hear from you and I was slightly worried about you...lol...wondering if you were ok...but I should have know you were as you really are much stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Every best everything for you....have a great day and let yourself do what ever it is that comes.
Chat soon Aaron...and I won't worry if we don't..as I know you will be off living a wonderful life...yay for you.