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  1. Ggrand
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    13 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    Sending you some...no lots of love and care dearest bbff..👭.

    💚💚🕊🕊🌹🤗🤗🧸🦘🐄☁️🚿🐂🐕🐏🕷🔑🧸..

    RUOK?.....

    I don’t know what I was thinking....

    I painted my nails..the first time in many, many years....💅...now all I need is some lipstick 💄..a pretty dress 👗, some ribbons 🎀 for my hair...oops shoes ...I must have some shoes...where are they, 💼..hmm these will do.. 👠..Oh and a hat..lets see what I can find 💼.. 🎩 nope, not that one..let’s look again, 💼... 🧢..nah, I’ll pass on that one as well..I know it’s in here 💼, somewhere...⛑nope...ahh here it is 👒....now I’m all ready to go out somewhere...

    but where too....hmmmm.🤷🏻‍♀️.... 🏖 beach for some 🏄‍♀️ ..no way, it will destroy my pretty 👗 and 🎀, and 💅 and also my 💄..not to mention my 👠 ...Umm how about it honey, if you put on a pretty dress 👗, and 💅 and 💄and 👒 and put in some shoes 👠..we can’t forget the 👠...then we can go somewhere nice for dinner tonight.....only if you want to....maybe Mr. Deebi can come with us...if he wants to...it would be nice....to spend some time together...just chatting away...about nothing in particular...just being together and having some eats would be a dream come true...

    I do hope and pray that your mil is doing okay....and I hope and pray the same for you dearest bbff....um no pressure to reply at all......just know precious friend that I do care so much about you as well as I have a soul sister bond that can never be broken....Eternal love and hugs dearest friend...

    24/7 ☁️...💚🧸🤗🕊👭.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    13 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand
    Hey my gorjy bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Croixy 🐧 Pawsy🐾 and readers


    It's been a while I often think to post and yak but don't get around to it. Sometimes I really want to talk about the deeps it's so hard to. Quite good now

    Ohh I do love our mucking around. SO glad you put the choccy store in our bag nice and easy to get to.

    Ohh Grandy Mr Deebi would love to come out to tea with us he's such a dear man. Love him to bits.

    Grandy nothing in this world would make me happier than us to be rl and out to tea and you staying here. God I wish.

    Pawsy love thank you for your thoughtful mention there could be a subconscious going on about my late love.
    I know not last but the Xmas before it just wasn't the same. Didnt get there this one

    Dear Mil some not good news just heard today she has cancer in 2 major organs. She's going home from hospital tomorrow.
    We'll get up there soon for a night.
    They said maybe 3 mths possibly a year.
    From all accounts she's quite weak & needing a lot of sleep. 💔 😢 She's never far from my thoughts and of course more now.

    Our friends stage 4. The chemos holding it but I don't know how long for poor bloke. He's doing well

    Oh Grandy love you look beautiful btw I do love that shade of glitter lippy. Loved your posts 🤗😅 always do. We have an incredible sss bond for sure 💜 never to be broken. I think about you so often daily with enourmous love

    It's so nice here but I've resigned to the probability we'll have to leave this area. Covids upped rentals and near impossible to get somewhere, other bbff still trying.

    Just finishing off my last smokes from this episode. Geez so broke and owe so much to poor Mr love and other bbff. They know they'll get it back. I pay a chunk each pay. Was given patches so should be ok giving them up again today and will use them next cycle or before if need be.

    We had another covid alert at Coles We're ok. Boosters Weds.

    My mh bloke SO good will be leaving soon bummer. We'll remain very good friends because he chooses not to have the jabs. That's so wrong!

    Croixy thank you very much too for your comforting kind words that goes for you all.
    I love our banter ☺

    We're walking to the shops in a tic and Grandy aren't they beautiful those chai lattes mmmm. Glad you had one gorgeous. Geez I love you 🤗😚

    Thanks lovely friends. You're all beautiful so glad to know youse.

    We spend a lot of time at bestys some times not. Love it.

    Laters good peeps ☺


    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🐧🐾🦄🕊👍⚘🤗🗯


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    18 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I hope you are okay...

    Just popping in quickly to wish you a good sleep and to send you my love 💚, care 🌹, kind thoughts 🕊☁️ and bear hugs 🧸🤗 before I sleep tonight...which is about now...I am super tired...and my eyes won’t stay open unless I use match sticks 😂 👀...

    I will pop back tomorrow, if that’s okay to chat and have a chia latte together with some hot toasted banana bread, smothered with lots of butter....

    Love to you honey, with my care and lots of hugs..💚🕊🤗🤗🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    20 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, and everyone....🤗..

    Um...sorry, I’m a day later then I said I would be...but I’m here now, with a nice hot chai latte and hot buttered banana bread....

    Thats really so sad about your gorgeous mil..my heart goes out to you and all her family....Doesn’t matter how much we prepare ourselves, it always a shock to hear such bad news...I do so much hope that you you are able to have a nice visit with her.....hugs my dear friend, and please remember I’m always...Thats 24/7/365 here for you....

    Awe I know how much you like your mental health bloke...I am sorry he is leaving you, but pleased that you will stay good friends...I haven’t heard from my support worker now for 2 weeks...since she sent a GROUP msg to say that no face to face contact...only phone support...hmmm..What phone support?...anyway it is what it is...

    I have found around a dozen butternut pumpkins in amongst my huge forever growing pumpkin patch....If it keeps spreading, I’ll have no back lawn left 😂...I do hope they grow....in time for winter, for your yummy pumpkin soup.... I wish I could send some down to you...

    I hope you had a nice walk the other day....I have to go to town tomorrow to buy some meds..l might stop off at the back of the park and have a nice coffee while watching the small creek flow....maybe I might be lucky and see the ducks that reside their...

    My Dr. booked me in for my booster in April..but I think now I can have it February...which will be 4 months apart instead of 6...My Dr. will probably contact me to let me know...

    Today has been perfect..26deg with some cool winds, just perfect enough for me to mow my lawns AGAIN!...so over my them...,My hip/groin and back doesn’t do well for a few days after...so I will probably just be lazy for the next few days until they settle down..,

    I hope you’re doing okay honey....my new avatar Angel is sending my love, care, and big hugs to you via her little dove she’s holding....💚🌹🦄🧸🤗....🕊🕊🕊🕊...

    Love, care and hugs everyone listening here..💜🌹🤗

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    20 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear DB (wiht a wave to Grandy)~

    You said "I love our banter ☺"

    Hmmm... I'm not sure its banter, more like I can see the trouble and bad influence you are! Anyone who would substitute a penguin (inebriated or sober) for a walrus is most certainly full of cheek and mischief (or failed biology I suppose).

    If it is any consolation, on a more serous note, giving up the smokes was only something I managed in later life. I never thoght I'd be able to, but was wrong! (You see even walruses can be wrong sometimes) - (but very rarely of course)

    Hope you find a new enjoyable home at a reasonable rent soon

    Croix (who owns his iceberg so no rent!)

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    21 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi, wave to Grandy & Croix,

    Oh lass I'm so sorry to hear your news about your mil... I do hope you get to see her soon as I think you both need to hug each other...

    You really are being pummelled by sad news... having to deal with your mil's illness as well as your friends & then to learn you are losing your wonderful support worker... lass we are all here for you if you need to talk more...

    Can I offer a silly (but it did help me) suggestion with trying to give up the smokes... I took the ink bit out of a pen just leaving a hollow tube... I found it helped with the hand to mouth habit & the drawing in deeply habit by "smoking" using it to breathe in air only... I didn't use it all the time just when the urge to smoke was really strong... for me the habit was the hardest part to break...

    Gentlest of hugs

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    21 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey lovely friends thanks so much for your care and support.

    I'll bee backkk.

    Have a mild but oh so painful quite often back out.

    Had 4 days that were horrible crying cranky just blaghh. Dear Mr Deebi 😍 the lovely man just wore it. I was horrid and felt like crap being so awful between crying. Ok now yay.

    Youse really are lovely thank you ☺

    Heya Mrs 👩‍❤️‍👩💜 so good seeing you always. Deep 4evs love beautiful I'll bbl to reply properly thanks loves 🤗

    Love to you Pawsy 🐾 and a shake to Mr Croixy man 👋 uh oh have to settle for a wave 🤗🐧

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    21 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    I'm up to you DB, you weren't rying to shake my flipper, you were trying to slip me another penguin!

    -C

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    22 January 2022 in reply to Croix
    😅 uh oh sprung
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    24 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I am sorry your back is giving you some hard times..

    I am sure Mr. Deebi has unconditional love for you as we all do, and understands that at times depression bi/polar takes control of our thoughts, words and actions and it’s really hard to overcome them...but eventually we do have wins and take back our control...and once again become the person that we are...without beasty’s interference....You got this honey...Depression bi/polar cannot have you...Do you know why?....because my bestest bbff you are so much more then they are.....

    Can I tell you something?....😂...ears 👂👂on the iPad screen...waiting...waiting...Oh good, so I can..

    On my drive home from my shopping town, it’s a really beautiful road...well not the road, it’s full of pot holes 🕳...I mean the scenery....The road goes over the top of mountains, sometimes around them...with no gutters, typical country road...along the roadside lots of trees, grasses, rocks etc. and weeds...paterson’s curse has a beautiful deep purple flower...anyway....as I was driving i noticed these little white butterflies everywhere....so many of them flittering here and their, I just had to stop..and I just sat watching them...there was so many they looked like snow falling and floating around my car...Have you ever really watched a butterfly fly, so graceful and peaceful, like they dance in mid air instead of flying...

    I wished so much you and the others here could have seen them....If they landed on Mr Walrus’s nose...would the butterflies tickle his nose?....hmm I wonder if walrus’s know how to sneeze 🤧...Your Avatar has no nose Deebi...so you wouldn’t be able to sneeze 🤧...even if they do tickle....

    No hurry to reply honey...just be okay always my special bbff...and look after your precious self....sending you via our golden string much love, care and lots of caring hugs..⚡️💫💚⚡️🧸🤗⚡️🕊⚡️🌹💫..

    Hugs to everyone,,,🤗..and all the fur and feathered companions.. 🧸🤗..we all have..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    24 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    aaaaaaaaaCHOOOO!

    Pesky butterflies, grumble grumble grumble ...

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    25 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    😀 hi my beautiful bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Mr Croixy 🐧 and everyone 👋

    That was so beautiful Grandy I always love your company. Thanks beautiful 🤗

    Yes 🦋 are beautiful delicate creatures aren't they and move which such grace. That would've been so beautiful to see dear Grandz. Thanks for sharing that it was lovely reading oh look and Croixy did get one 😅

    Dear Mr Deebi 😍 he's a dear love. Thanks Grandy it's no wonder I went through life and still do now not liking myself. Geesh horror. I at least feel a little comfort for absolutely not liking myself in those times opposed to not giving a hoot. It makes me feel worse being a cow.

    Wow that whole load went on and on. I was quite tired a few days after that all.

    I feel I'm not far away from cracking this as in how to handle the downs. Mania is the greatest teacher of all. I know how you feel Grandz about can we ever get on top. Yes I think so and easier to achieve if we believe we can. We've both come a long way eh hun. Seems so far to go but we will get there. This mongrels had us long enough!

    Dear Pawsy thanks so much. Our friend we just recently heard the cancers spread now to another place. Poor guy.

    Mil I'm now unsure if we'll be ok to stay but need to get up to see her sooner better than later I'd say. Like you Grandy she other besty and of course dear late love are always foremost in my mind so often daily and of course Mr sweetheart here even though we're pretty much every second together.

    Pawsy I'm off the smokes again now I'm out of poor mh. Wow same as you said so much debt. Good idea the pen tubes.

    Grandy really loved your dress up post 😅 before.

    Those mountains sound amazing.geesh be careful hun no curbs yikes.

    I'm going to have a good look again today I still haven't found that thingy but will it's very important. Oh and it looks like a gaming machine was flogged with our move. Sigh pretty ratted but cant/won't say anything in case it turns up but doubt it.

    Thanks so much dear friends youse are very appreciated and care deeply.

    Dear Grandy my loves so deep for you. Thank you for our amazing loving friendship. Always darlin 🗯🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜🦄🐩🦋🐧🐾

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    28 January 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🤗...and everyone..🤗.

    I was saddened to hear that you’re not liking yourself....You have a beautiful heart and soul and help so many here on BB and I know from your words in other posts that you help those around you....

    I think it’s okay to not like a certain part of us...I don’t like the part of me that runs away and hides and causes me to not be able to defend myself....but I do like the part of me that can care and feel so much compassion and empathy towards others.....Do you have a part of you that you do like?...Gee I hope so..because you should...look deep within your heart and soul, and I’m certain you will find so many...if not then I’ll write you out a list of all the things I like/live about you....

    True, so true that we have come a long way and one day we will wake up in a state of complete bliss and happiness...and rejecting beasty’s thoughts will be as easy as ‘eating a piece of chocolate ‘...😂😂.

    I think often of your gorgeous mil..and wish her so much peace and love....I do pray and hope that you are able to see her soon, that would bring some Joy into her heart...as I know how much you both love and care for each other...

    These COVID rules really don’t help anyone in hospital at all....A visit or two from a loved one is what helps them feel loved....and cheers them up some..

    I am really so pleased and happy that you and Mr. Deebi found each other...It did when you first met and still does warm my heart for you....one reason is that I know that you are not alone and that he is always there for you, helping to pull you up from a the deep dark side of your mental health...Unconditional Love is truely very beautiful and special....

    I hope you’re doing better then okay precious bbff...you are always in my thoughts with a deep love and connection..💚🕊🌱🦄👼...Stay safe, take care of you, and find all those beautiful qualities of yours that we all love...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🦄💫👼

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    29 January 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey there my bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩🤗 and everyone 🦋

    Oh oops Croixy thats the butterfly you shooed away how cute it's come back to your nose 😁

    Grandy you'tr so beautiful and your hearts Golden dear friend. Sorry lovey I have grown to like myself more. It's in horrible mh you feel like such a cow and so down on yourself. I should have said I now can see why I for so long haven't at all liked aspects of myself.

    Mr Deebi is a very dear lovely man. Thanks Grandy love you're such a beautiful friend always. So grateful you never give up on me 🤗 thank you darlin heart 💜👩‍❤️‍👩

    You're very sweet thinking about mil. I passed a msg on sending your love sweet lady. She's back home we did a video call it was short. I don't think we'll be able to do a night over and wondering about visiting, just about every Coles trips getting us texts of covid was there. Told her I miss her and always say I love her. She's not overly responsive but still a little sass there the dear love.

    I read your lovely comments about Mr beautiful I could hear in his quiet little responses he was moved by what you said. Thank you darlin he's a very dear easy man to love. Gorgeous darling. So easy going the precious.

    You too sweetyheart you're always in my thoughts daily so often. I really hope lifes being a bit easier on you precious soul. God knows you deserve and yeah how good would it be being as easy as eating choccy to rid beastys nastys 😆

    You're a ray of sunshine dear friend. So glad to have met you. Oh I was cuddling Destiny and Eternitys tummies and they said they want cuddles from you and to play with Kya and Ebony so howzabout a yum roast Lamb wow how long its been for one of them mmmm spuds crunchy ones beans 3 peas you and Mr gorgeous can have more if youse like I dont mind baby ones in cooking though & umm zucchinni gravy and why not throw in some Pork crackling for the thrill of it 😀

    Butterscotch pudding by Sarah uh 9h whats that brand name it's so good ah yip Mr Deebi the cute remembered it's Sarah Lee. Ohh yummmm or what!

    Love you heaps Grandz that'll never change dear lady ☺ 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯🐕🐆🐩🐅🌞👀👂🤗🤝

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    10 February 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, and everyone.....🤗.

    How are you managing yourself dearest bbff...I do so much hope that you are okay...well better then okay.🤗..

    I hope I’m not to late to bring Kya and Ebony over to play with Destiny and Eternity, while I have your yummy roast dinner with you and Mr Deebi...😁..

    Are you still taking some small walks together?...and are you still doing volunteer work?...only answer if you feel to..no pressure dear bbff....

    No not ever will I give up on you, might seem like it the past couple of weeks, with me not being here for you to chat...but I do have you in my heart and thoughts with deep love, kindness and care..👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💚🕊🌱🌹🧸🤗....

    I used to buy a lot of Sarah Lee’s cakes...I think they are really yummy, problem for me is that if they are in my freezer, I have to eat them😂😂..It’s too hard to resist them..so now I’ll buy only a few a year....

    Please be okay....Always beautiful friend...yadimh 24/7...

    Much love to you and your/our other friends here....Oh why not...and a giant group hug...🤗..which I hope Mr Deebi joins in...🤗🤗🤗🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy

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    10 February 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    aaaaaaaCHOO. Rotten butterflies, you train them on purpose DB. 😣

    I wish you two would stop talking about yummy food, I have trouble with my waistcoat as things are.

    I think Grandy is very wise to say not liking a part of yourself is OK, I think we all do that . You are a pretty good person and need to remember it even when that's hard.

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    13 February 2022 in reply to Croix

    Hey Deebi , Grandy,

    Do you see what I see.... Croixy used an emoji !!!!

    You're getting to him lassies... he'll be using them with complete gay abandon before he knows it...

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    19 February 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey dear friends & readers thanks for your time & support 👍

    Grandy hey besty 👩‍❤️‍👩 always so good seeing you
    Thanks lovey wow so far the easiest mh I can remember. Shame not much noticeable mania. That's ok down the track I'll work on it when I get more grip on the downs. Boyo still about 3 hard doses. Got through fairly quickly mainly by not thinking about how I was feeling & more thought on it.

    Not as much ptsd or anxiety and was able to let them pass-on hopefully 😆 never to be seen again.
    Acknowledging thought breathing deep letting it leave my body on exhaling.

    I've either let it flow in a virtual wind or land it on water flowing

    U suggested Champion Grandz with that horrid trapped feeling god it's suffocating. I went outside looked at the sky clouds moon - saw a bird fly noticed about whooptee 😄 2 stars & as always thought of you.

    Seeing the small yet large area of sky I thought it's tiny in the big scale of our space here which helped minimise my feelings somehow

    We were productive finishing off unpacking. Just v.smalls left now. SO good!

    No darl the amazing lady/friend that lead our volunteer work & more was dealt a rotten hand. Huge blow affecting many. We're & others loyal to her.
    Its a great service to many but as everywhere hierarchy & people at times get it wrong. Big loss. Common example of religious hypocrisy. I've seen other stuff too. Goes on everywhere sadly.

    Special needs I hope to resume with sport post covid later

    We're walking most days, not huge but will build up slowly. Boomer both feet better.
    You said about arch support. I mostly wear joggers with the ones I got like u did from op shop shoes. Brilliant Grandz 🤗

    💜💗 Awe loven seeing our gorgeous family together 🤝 Grandz you've no idea how much I wish for real 😢 so often I imagine us talking at yours and here. I try so hard at times Looking and get close I think to finding a way to keep believing that one day we'll meet. Hope aye darl we need to keep going

    Oh was saying how much i'm ap0reciating colour. It helps with mh I'm finding, Orange is one that lifts me & lighter pastels too. another too l to find the way to beat beasty

    Grandy it's ok truth hun never worry if you're busy or struggling I 7nderstand sweety 😚 We're unbreakable 💫 loves deep 4evs & grows. Awesome aye 🌈🤗

    Thx for including this dear sweet man in our hug ☺ I read bits out 😚

    Bbl 🐧 🦋

    🤣 how good is that Pawsy 🐾 our Croixy man using an emoji. Note to self - plan a party on his iceberg



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    19 February 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    I heard that!

    I'll try bribery to make you forget about parties on my iceberg

    Here's a pizza each 🍪 🍪 with free penguin 🐧

    Glad the feet are holding up

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    19 February 2022 in reply to Croix

    🤣🤣🤣

    HA! Penguins have gotta get up earlier than that to twick us partee revellers...swoops a string of crepe paper decoration across her neck...oop misses and covers her eyes...arms waving in front trying to find her way...clunk...

    Hymm 🤔 must complete memo to all Penguin butterfly fans under no circumstances to accept Pizza...ahhh yes his beastly plan may have worked if chocolate 🍫was on the bribe list 😲 no that's not shock it's my mouth open and ready

    Oh so very proud and impressed with your emojis Croixy man and so controlled too 😂

    Hope you're feeling better Mr 🐧🦋😊

    Love to my gorjy bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀👂🤝🙌👁

    Nigh nite. Hoping for a full nights sleep without early rising

    Good restful sleeps everyone.

    Last night thought about sun shining on still water...

    First morning thought ... How sunlight makes it all lovely

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    20 February 2022 in reply to Croix

    Hi Croixy 🐧 bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Pawsy 🐾 and readers ☺

    Croixy thanks for your kind words they're appreciated

    It's a big shame that fattening food giving enormous comfort and pleasures no good for us. I'd say foods if not the greatest at least up there for most pleasure and many probs same.

    I'm not so sure lovely peeps about accepting our bad points because I think if they hurt others including ourselves we should be working on controlling them and change. Yours doesnt hurt others Floss 🤗

    Too many people imo accept their crappo side & wear the big A -Attitude and probs the other A would be appropriate too 😄 and go through life not giving a toss if they upset or hurt others.

    I'm a strong believer in treating others how we'd like to be treated. I will fight back and hard but still preferring now days no conflict but it'll always be there though I'm improving just slightly not over reacting but seriously folks some people just do need help pulling their heads in 😁

    Headaches 🤕 are pretty much the norm most of the time. It's like a fabulous holiday when rarely I get a wk/2 plus free and can have my head on the pillow without pain pretty much instantly. The mutts drag on up to 3 days. Anti inflams still help & my hip most times but 3 days max then a rest for the liver. At least there's some reprieve with less meds

    Put on about 5 kg. Apart from slacked off I'm bodily feeling it. Using both reasons to ease off on the naughties & hope to increase exercise. Bit tricky the thighs still intermittently making walking hard. I want us to incorporate the exercise bike into our

    Keen to getting a bike back on the road, heres good it's nice and flat and lovely for riding. I enjoyed that but a stationary one is dead set whooptee..so are we having fun yet 🤔

    I've withdrawn a great deal here included not to say I/we dont have socials. Yesterday with Mr 😍 besty jhis bro and times with other besty but like my space. Thing is in the wrong headspace so damned often & people just being people including me say stuff that pings at times. I'm happy with mostly 24/7 with Mr love like with Mr late love. We have the odd ph call text visit/or & chats with peeps out and about

    Aiming to see mil Tues/Thurs. Didnt want to turn with stimulation this into a bigger mh but still coming down isnt ideal. Guilts eating me not seeing her. 24/7 thoughts /grieving.

    So much love Grandz 👩‍❤️‍👩💜

    Thanks too lovely friends 🐧🐾

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    20 February 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, 👋 Croix, Paws and everyone..🤗.

    Deebi, honey I know you so well from our talks here and one thing I am 100% sure on is that you would never intentionally hurt anyone....with either your words or actions...I believe that you have a great gift, of standing up for your beliefs and friends....

    Standing up for what you believe in, should never ever effect a true and genuine friendship....maybe a cause for a gentle and friendly debate but not cause for your friends to get angry or upset with you.....

    Listen to someone that knows. that by holding back what you need to say...can and will in the end get so frustrating that it invades your mind constantly and the anger that you first felt from...let’s say...something bad someone said to you, will fester and build up like a volcano...and it’s eruption can only be in a couple of ways.....1..more harsher words then you expected to say to this person, 2... lots of belittling of yourself and a flood of tears that’s sure to follow...

    I would feel so safe hanging around with you....you might feel that I’m to timid for you...but we will be always.. true, honest, great and caring friends towards each other....everyone is different and that’s what makes us all unique....

    Oh, wouldn’t it be so nice if vegetables and all the healthy foods had a chocolate flavour and the yummy sweet forbidden foods tasted like vegetables 😂..everyone would be sooooo healthy...Okay, so honey..you put on 5 kilos...that’s okay, it really is.....maybe just just take a little off your plate each night or take away one spoonful of sugar (if you have sugar) from your coffee each cup....you will soon loose it again....slow and steady wins the race.....It’s great you are still walking....doesn’t matter how long or short your walks are...you are getting out their and that’s awesome...not like me..I still don’t go out for walks.😢.

    When you can, Deebi....with your mil...please don’t feel guilty about not visiting her yet...it would be so hard for you to do that... I know you will when you feel able to..🤗💜

    I’m running out of space...wanted to talk more...and will a bit later on....in the mean time my bestest bbff, remember that I hold you in a very beautiful part of my heart and soul with lots of love and care..🧸🤗💚💚🕊🌱..and that you are one very awesome person...My biggest 🤗 bear hugs, dear friend..

    Hugs all round to everyone reading,,,with my care...🤗🤗🌹🦋..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    27 February 2022 in reply to Ggrand

    Hiyaz 👩‍❤️‍👩🐧🐾 & all ☺

    Grandz your post moved me. Thank you dear friend 💜
    Sometimes words/actions catch you at just the right time.
    Mania gave it an extra glow tho it was magic without too ☺

    I'm working on a post so a few bitsies for now so you know I'm more ok than not atm ☺ thanks for your love & care hun always so deeply appreciated 🤗

    We saw dear mil recently. It was a lovely visit and so much relief that she still has her mind. We'll visit more often. So terribly hard knowing we won't have her for much longer but nice that people can see her before she leaves 😭😢😔
    I sent your love she was touched and said and I'm sending my love to her too. Thanks Grandy 🤗

    Her family carers are doing brilliantly.
    They settled my guilt which was a huge release.
    I explained to mil too and Covids been a block as well as Mh.

    Most of us experience the deep pain of losing loved ones.
    Geez it's hard Grandz I can handle the pain in normals with 24/7 thoughts but in mh phooey.
    Maybe we handle it better in normal times because we experience the deep severity of depression in poor mh.

    At times on a walk to Coles we see friends/others we know.
    While chatting with one who I/we also have a good laugh/general chat with the bloke that was feeling rage that I hadn't or he for that matter spoken much after for a while from his initial contact again. I knew he would but took longer than I expected but he was going through hell.
    I told Mr 😍 about him & that I liked him and before the fall out we started some cuddles.
    Asked if he was ok for him coming to lunch one day which he is plus I'm nuts over this beautiful.
    It was really good we rekindled the friendship face on. He seems a pretty good bloke.

    Mr's besty seems to be going quite well through the chemo. Tough, he's beaten 3different cancers so far.
    We're in touch periodically and outs/visits

    I'm SO close to doing a jobby. 😆 just re read that 😂 big one 😅 that I've badly needed to do for a few yrs. Struth 🤣 It'll be mega relief (sure will 😄) and accomplishment. Even mania doesn't get me doing it.
    I'll aim for tomoz cause today we're going to bestys to see more of a really good show we've been watching at hers for a bit and a catch up.

    Since our 3rd jab I've had palpitations that intermittently I do not too often. Oops read later and will check it out that can be a more serious side affect & attentions needed. Also stress in mh

    Much love darlin 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯💫🤗😚









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    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Oh honey, I’m so pleased that you had a visit with your gentle mil...Awe please thank your mil for me....I know she has a gentle heart and is not in the best of health....I know she will cherish and love your visit.....

    You know I often think about people who know they don’t have long on this universe...as hard as it is for them and their loved ones, everyone gets the chance to say there goodbye’s....In acway I think it would be much harder for everyone, who’s love, family or friends had an accident and couldn’t say goodbye...I don’t think they would get any closure....for many many years...if at all...because always things are left unsaid or undone....I am so very pleased you got to see her 🤗💚..

    I think I remember, you mentioned him a couple of years back..you were trying so hard to comfort his rage, then when you couldn’t help him...you went very deep down...It’s good you ran into him and can see that he got through that rough patch and is doing okay again....Mr Deebi, has nothing to worry about..your love for him is strong and he knows that....Good though you told him about him...better no secrets in a relationship....you’re one very special young lady Deebi.,,,and I hope so much you know that....

    When you’re ready honey and the times right..you’ll get that big jobbie done...I know you will..

    Really like the idea of you watching a show with your bestie, plenty of popcorn, a glass of Khaula, great company...you can’t get any better then that....I hope you all enjoy it...

    Oh no, Please get those palpitations checked out ASAP....just to rule out any thing else...You have to look after and care for yourself my bbff...but please don’t keep putting it off......okay?..

    I am laying here chatting to you..have dry sheets on the line and it started to sprinkle a few minutes ago..,Can’t be bothered getting them in....The rain water will freshen them more then the town water does...😂😂😂😂..plus I do love chatting to you...😁..

    Prayer for Mr, bestie’s friend, that he can also beat this cancer as well... 🙏..

    Take really good care of you bbff...so much love and care I have in my heart for you..💚🌹🦋🕊🌱...golden strings can never be broken...

    Live, care and hugs to everyone reading this..🦋💜🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Hello Deebi,

    Oh I'm so happy for you that you managed to visit your much loved mil... especially that she was still able to enjoy the visit herself that is wonderful news.

    I'm joining our lovely Grandy in asking you to please get those palpitations checked out... soon... please...

    I see you are up to shenanigans on Croixy's iceberg in his absence... good girl 😁

    Lass I know your headaches are primarily because of physical issues... but I wonder if you are drinking enough water... it can help to reduce the impact... even if it is just a few headaches it helps that would still be better.

    Oh I wish I could wave a magic wand & make those downs disappear for you... you do seem to be having quite a run of them without many ups... I'm so glad you have Mr Deebi beside you as you battle beasty...

    Big hugs

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    10 March 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful bbff👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....Waves Dear Paws, and everyone.

    Just a quick lightning ⛈ visit to wish you a really good nights sleep...like the one you had a few nights back...I have spoken very gently to my dream pixies and asked them to take special care of you tonight, and give you the most peaceful and very deep sleep tonight..🕊🌱..

    Did you know that this 🐛, turns into this 🦋..when the time is right ....really amazing isn’t it?...

    When I was at my son’s place, I went for a walk with my eldest son at his place....he took me only 15 minutes walk away....although if we jumped his back fence..it would have been quicker...anyway walked into a national park that was completely burnt out, through those horrific fires...You would not believe how beautiful it is there....small running creek...,with tadpoles in it...So much greenery and even on trees that were left to look like they are growing out of charcoal...such a peaceful picture...the black tree trunks, new browny branches growing out of the charcoal and different shades of green leaves....That piece of nature has bounced back, to all It’s former glory with some more added....Nature has a lot of patience...it never tires, continually changing itself....sometimes it falls...but always picks itself up and becomes more beautiful each time...

    I read somewhere today...that to see true beauty...we must first see the destruction, to really appreciate that beauty.....To feel genuine happiness...we must first feel real sadness and pain, to then appreciate the feeling of happiness and joy...

    Good night my bestest ever bbff...Lots of Hugs,🤗 care 🦋and love 💚...sleep tight, dream right, and tomorrow you will be alright..🐛🦋🌱🌲..

    Sending my love, care and hugs to everyone reading this..💜🦋🤗.l

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Hi loves 👩‍❤️‍👩🐾 & readers

    Thank you girls. It was so good seeing mil. Quite a relief. We'll go more often. Hard in some other ways too. Time might soften but dunno.

    Grandy I loved your posts. So true about seeing and also feeling destruction to truly know happiness. It's like that going through BP isnt it & traumatic.
    I believe we'll learn to get on top rather than through. We're learning techniques & unlearning habits.

    It doesnt feel like theres progress at times but there is which helps to keep in mind.

    This was easier - I thought but it was mania handling it all. So that'd be possible for us all I reckon.
    It's so deep coming down. Everything hurts so much harder. Thank god it passes.

    They seem longer these days. Just starting to get my normals back including sleep. Those pixies are just fab and cute ☺

    So many are going away or dying. I know it's part of life but doesn't make it easier. Both mil & g.friend (Mr 😍besty) both appear to be in acceptance. Good on them I'm happy they appear at peace with it. It'd be hard tho I'd think though. Can't say the same yet!

    Other bbff has to move out (roar deal for her).
    Hoping for same area but doubt hop skip jump away like now.

    Everythings clumping against us. One bills totally unfair and now more friggen money for car repairs. Thank goods we have an account. More $ geesh!

    Regos v.soon & a service.
    So many other bills all at once. We'll get there. I keep thinking of gambling yrs we always did. Just so much atm.

    Mh bloke been gone about 3/4 wks. Not a peep yet for a new person.

    Every pay the next day broke or soon after.

    Not gambling since back then.
    Manias open mind again allowed me to realise I can't get through non motivation while my hrs are there.

    One of many goods tho is the motivation that in mania helped me understand doing a post to you Grandz. Laters

    Thanks again lovelies I'm ok but it's pretty rough atm but happies too. We have to have our hard times too Unfortunately and so many have it a lot worse.

    😢 knew the email wouldn't help but had to try & had a Lovely response. Unsure if I sent to the right section 😐

    Checked chemist & Dr palpatations for me weren't connected to booster. ? Stress is pretty high atm and BP always.

    Pawsy thanks yes I mostly do drink plenty of water and you are right tho that can cause headaches.

    Love to you both 🤗🐾

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🗯🤗🕊🤝👂




     

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    16 March 2022 in reply to demonblaster

    Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone

    Just heard my dear mil passed away this morning.

    RIP beautiful lady 💗

    So so much love and incredible memories that'll both always stay.

    At peace now dear lady 🤗😚

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    Hello Deebi,

    Oh lass I'm so very sorry to hear she has passed... I'm am pleased you got to visit her that one last time... the visit must have brightened her last days as the two of you obviously had such a close bond...

    Know I'm sitting with you in spirit lass...

    My deepest condolences & the gentlest of hugs

    Paws

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    Hello Dear Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩,

    Awe honey I’m so deeply sorry....Such very sad news...

    It was so good that you got to see her before she passed...It doesn’t make it any easier I know....Your beautiful mil felt your love and care as you felt hers...💚🕊🌱.

    No words I say can take away your hurt sweetie, please know I’m sitting next to you in spirit...and if you need to talk we are all here for you....

    I will pop back in later today to check in on you...

    sending you and your family my very deepest condolences..

    RIP Lovely mil...

    Thinking of you with kind thoughts and sending you some comforting hugs...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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