I had a trauma as a 12yo boy. I went no speech for 3 months but due to shock I didnt realise why until much older, 53yo actually when my wife and I attended a psychiatrist and it all came out. It was a swimming incident with my older brother that was a diabetic and them days I had to watch him as he was unstable with insulin.
Anyway he passed away aged 26 from suicide and I embarked upon a recommendation from a friend to follow Maharaji Prem Rawat. He doesnt promote religion but wisdom and better still he has many YouTube videos.
As a sample-
So, I took his advice in one video to climb a hill and watch the sun set. Yes, as he says the sunset, we've all seen them, but it takes 2 hours for a sun to set- so have you seen a sunset?
It isnt the be all and end all, recovery is a mix of many things- medication, dosage, environment, hobbies, love, removing toxic people from your life and so on. Dont be afraid, major changes can be good and eventually you'll settle down when you are ready.
I hope that helps.