I had been seeing my partner for nearly 3 years. There were good times but there were bad times too.
I did some stupid things and so did he. I went to see a Counsellor and worked out I have low self esteem and suffered from codependency issues.
I asked him to see a Counsellor with me but he never did. We broke up but he came back saying he would change and do anything to get us back on track.
The last couple of months have been really tough with his Mum suffering health issues and then having to move. I helped him so much during this time as I have always done. He even lived with me for nearly 4 weeks cause his unit was not an option.
He has since moved into a new unit and his Mum's situation has improved. Now he says he is emotionally cooked and that I am full on, needy and smothering.
He isn't willing to work on us and told me to go and get better for the next person. It feels he took what he could when he needed it from me and now that things have improved for him, he moves on.
He tells me now he has been to a Counsellor who told him it is a long road for someone with codependency to improve - but he can't be that person to help me. It is so hurtful especially after I was there for him during some of his toughest times.
He even admitted that he would say and and do things to push me out of my comfort zone to prove little things aren't worth worrying about and to make me a stronger person.
I know I have to change some things in my life but this wasn't all me.
Since this all exploded, I have felt so lonely and guilty about what has happened. I know things will get better but it is just so hard, especially after I drove past him today.
I know I am a good person and probably deserve better. But I worry and get so anxious about where to from here. It has affected my sleep, my work and some of my friendships.
Everyday is so hard. I just hope it will get better.