Well , gf and l have talked last few days, quite a bit actually. Don't ask me how it started again can't even remember, think it was just from one message, we're like that.
l don't even know how to say things l want to here, butttt, anyway, we just blow me away , we just do , and so does she. lt's pretty damn incredible this thing we have. You know it's been something like 9mths l think since we've seen ea other. Yet even with all this break stuff , her frame of mind and everything she's going through , and she's just had the first part of one of her court cases. Then add into all that things at my end going on for me too , it's just mind blowing.
Whether we've talked for mths or not at all for mths , or any of the above , or haven't even seen ea other, l just can't explain it but we still grow. Huge things that would be splitting most people up , we still somehow grow. We talk again and it's just like nothings happened or as if she's still been right here with me all along , it's surreal. And she somehow knows things , things about me , or something l've been feeling , or something l'm starting to feel , or something l've been thinking about , big things , things no way you could just guess at or possibly know , we both do with ea other , even with all this or if we haven't even talked in mths. lt's mind blowing and she's getting stronger and stronger without even being with me. We've both always been like this with ea other , we somehow just know things, big things all kinds of things, and feelings too , they're just there, stringer than ever, but for that to be still growing let alone becoming as strong as it is even under these circumstances , man, it's very weird.
But it's a real worry to. l suppose we shouldn't even be talking, protecting our hearts bc if her court cases go against her we're doomed anyway. So hard to know just how to handle it but it's like we just can't stop it.
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