Hey Croix, thanks for making this thread as per my suggestion, I appreciate it. I'm sure others do too.
Anyway, I struggle with Insomnia. I haven't been to a sleep clinic or anything like that, but I know that I have it, and my Psychiatrist diagnosed me with it (I see him over Telehealth and have since I first saw him in 2019, plus he's in another state). I was thinking of seeing if there were some sleep places like that around me though, I have no idea what they'd do or anything. I was thinking about sleep meds too but I'm worried I'd take them all on purpose & it would interact with my other meds (1 SSRI & the pill, not related to mental health) & maybe if I take a med my Psychiatrist recommends for my nightmares/PTSD.
No matter what time I try to go to sleep, it takes me 1 hour to fall asleep, then I wake every hour pretty much, to go to the toilet, just waking up & can't get back to sleep, nightmares or weird dreams, thirsty, whatever, all of that stuff happens. The nightmares are often, I don't watch or look up scary stuff, they just happen.
This makes me sleep in to try & catch up on sleep. I seem to sleep better during the day when the light comes through my blinds, because for some reason I feel safe then? I've always hated the dark & night time, I think I did as a kid too, I'm not 100% sure. When I've been away from home, in familiar surroundings or not (fair enough with unfamiliar surroundings), I've also struggled to sleep.
I've been this way since I was 12 when I first got mental health issues, so in 2011. I know it's a waste of power but I leave my TV on for the light & sound. I've tried forcing myself to sleep with a night light, but I need the TV on & I'm worried something would burn or something if I left it on. I usually put the sleep timer on on my TV but then I turn it back on when I wake up again. I can't sleep in complete dark no matter where I am because I hear noises & I feel unsafe, & I feel like I see things.
I've tried Lavender (I love Lavender), tried counting sheep or other things, tried to calm myself down, tried listening to relaxing music, tried imagining I'm in a peaceful place, etc. Nothing seems to work that I've noticed anyway.
I don't know what to do, it's exhausting. I feel like not getting out of bed most days/afternoons. I'm lazy but I'm mentally ill & I'm also in pain which is also making me depressed (yes my parents, GP & Psychiatrist know my insomnia & pain), & it also wakes me.
Sorry for rambling on everyone.