You've got me pegged, EM. I absolutely suck at asking for help. Partly because I would rather do things for myself, and partly because I have a long history (prior to my current relationship) of a whole lot of nothing happening on the rare occasions I have asked for help. The funny part is when I have received help it has inevitably been from someone on the sidelines who has grown tired of watching me try my butt off and get nowhere, it never has anything to do with asking for it.
As for numbers to call and websites to check out... I have been down that road through many a crisis and as a general rule come away from it feeling a lot worse than when I started. Honestly, Googling adjacent topics and removing direct human contact from the equation, whilst somewhat inadequate, has consistently proven the vastly superior option.
That said, my partner has been feeling well enough today to be able to do his own thing with minimal help from me. As a result, a bit of self care has actually happened.
- Accepted that it was okay not to have the birds out of their cages for the whole day, popped them to bed and got stuck into some housework.
- Went for a walk to the wetlands near home. Even jogged a little, which isn't exactly typical for me.
- Saving this space, might play a game or watch a thing soon.