Welcome to the beyondblue forum. It is great to see you are reaching out here for support. You have identified some issues with worry and feeling anxious about discussing with your parents that you are needing extra support. I want you to know that this is 100% normal. Bringing up to your parents this sensitive topic of needing help can make you (or anyone in the same situation) feel vulnerable.
I have a few suggestions that might help you get the support you need so you can get to your GP.
I wonder if you have ever contacted the Kids HelpLine where you could talk to an operator about the stress of discussing your mental health with your parents. Sometimes by just talking to someone, even once can help you find the strength you need. The number for the Kids HelpLine is 1800 55 1800 and their motto is Any time. Any reason.
Another suggestion is to contact headspace. You can read about headspace by going to this website www.headspace.org.au
By going to the website you can find the closest centre to you or use the e-headspace tool. Headspace is for young people 12-25 and focuses on mental health care in a way that is accessible for young people. You may have heard of it but if you are really delaying getting treatment due to cost and not wanting to discuss issues with your parents, you can go to a centre and make an appointment. There are counsellors and Doctors there however sometimes there are waitlists.
Telling your parents may result in relief once you get over the obstacle. Obviously this is easier said than done. You could try writing a pros and cons list of what the outcome would be if you talk to them. Chances are the pros would outweigh the cons. Perhaps you have another close friend or family member that you trust that you could talk with? Could they then help you bring up the subject with your parents?
Another option is that if you can’t talk with your parents to get support, you could find a GP that bulkbilks so you don’t have to pay the appointment fee.
Getting help sooner rather than later can be really important so things don’t get out of control. If you do feel things spiraling in the wrong direction and you feel unsafe contact 000 or Lifeline on 13 11 14.
It sounds like you want to bring your parents into your support circle and finding the strength to do this can be tough but worth it, especially if you get on a positive path to healing and wellness sooner than later.
Wishing you the best possible outcome,