Hi there Lilly
Welcome to the forum family! We are here to help you :)
So a bit of background... I'm 14, have a bunch of anxiety disorders, depression and a weird mania disorder that I don't want to talk about.
Getting up the courage to ask for professional help is a big thing. In fact, my thread is actually called 'advice for seeking professional help' with a bunch of trigger warnings afterwards. I started it earlier this year when I was faced with the same problem as you- gaining the confidence to speak with someone you don't know about a very personal subject. I couldn't even talk to my parents. So I happened to come across a very attractive alternative- online chats. As the forums aren't actually professionals, this function, available on beyondblue's website and eHeadspace, as well as some others (kids helpline? I'll have to check that out I'm not sure) was really a big stepping stone in my approach to recovery. The thing about these chats is that it's not face to face, it's online, the only thing they know about you is your age and your name. They can't watch you, it's not as uncomfortable, and as the people on there are actual mental health clinicians, they are less judgmental than a regular GP (in my opinion).
woah, I sound like I'm trying to sell mental health webchats to you. Nice one Chloe 🙄🙄
after talking to a couple of people at eHeadspace and beyondblue, I found I had gained the courage to speak to the school counsellor. Then next came my year advisor. Then all of a sudden my parents were taking me to the GP about my (then) unknown issues. Then the local headspace centre. Then the psychologist I'm seeing now, whom I can openly talk to about anything. Talking comes easy to me, so I guess that once I started I couldn't stop. And I guess that's why I am recovering now.
I think you should at least give it a go. You can also email eHeadspace and beyondblue if real-time chatting is a bit too hard ☺️
Well I hope you have a peaceful nights sleep :)