I imagine myself reading the book you're producing. I imagine myself crying part of my way through it. I imagine myself feeling heartache; you know that feeling where your chest just aches for someone and what they've been through. I imagine wanting to scream in parts, screaming for the you who wanted to scream at times but couldn't. It will be a deeply emotional book. I'm both a 'feeler' and a mum. To imagine, as a mum, my children growing up with such pain is heartbreaking. I always wanted to be a foster parent, so I could give a child the life they're entitled to but my husband has always refused to seriously consider this.
I suppose there are a lot of reasons as to why people are insensitive to feeling. You can have some who are more analytical than emotional, which can be a gift in certain careers. You can have narcissists, who are purely self serving. Self entitlement leads them to be detached from anything that doesn't serve them. You can have people who have been conditioned to become insensitive, where sensitivity is conditioned out of them in one way or another, for one reason or another. Then there are those highly sensitive people. These are the people who can't have their sensitivity conditioned out of them. They feel everything. They'll feel degradation, they'll feel the anger of others, their own fear, the need to question, oppression, their own rage and sadness and the list goes on. They'll feel every feeling that can lead them into feeling a depression.
To deeply feel the revelation 'I am far greater than all the beliefs that have led me here into this depression. I am far greater than the degradation and oppression that I've endured. I am entitled to be me, my true natural self', is a feeling that leads to the quest to find our natural self. So many questions on a quest. Through such a quest, we gain the ability to raise our self. On this quest, the greatest challenge I've found involves not believing in anything that holds the potential to bring me down. To no longer believing in cruel words, in the destructive beliefs of others and in their ways that have me believing in my false limitations, triggers the belief that my potential is limitless (within reason).
The challenge to not believe everything you hear can be enormous. The challenge to feel what inspires you and what is bringing you down can be just as great. To feel your way through life is a gift.
You have this gift :)